Everything in me knows HER...

Recently I discovered an interesting fact about my own self. No matter in what position I fall asleep at night but while I wake up I'm always on my stomach but I barely sleep facing down at night. Which then after thinking hard I realised that I have been so used to sleep on my Mom's chest from a very young age that my brain only finds comfort in sleeping that way even though now am away from her.

It just blew my mind on how sometimes our body just knows a lot of things about ourselves that we don't tend to realise. The fact that my body knew where to find comfort despite me not being aware of it.

I am also glad that everything in me knows that where there is comfort ,there will be my Mom. Have been hearing "Don't be like your mother" all my life but I don't think they will ever realise how much I aspire to be like her in my life. To be kind like her not the kind where one forgets about their own self but the kindness that emerges from knowing one's self worth. To be strong like her not the strength to endure things but to find the strength in facing things just like her.

Even though am here in hostel miles away from her ,there is always something in me or around me that reminds me of her. Starting from the way I wake up to the tiny ring on my finger that I choose to wear just because it reminds me of her presence despite it not being aesthetic enough. Though Amma is not physically present near me but I carry her presence deep in my heart enough to feel her everywhere. Though missing her brings pain but I will happily live amidst that pain just so it brings back the memory of her.Everything in me knows HER.And that's how special she is!

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