Scribbles of Sunjanaa

It doesn't take a second for me to judge when it comes to men. I recently was to take an auto ride but was very hesitant to get into one judging the way the auto anna appeared to be. To add up to my uncertainty that particular auto also had these weird red lights inside making it look creepy in the dark night. However that day it was the only auto available and I was to get into my hostel before the curfew time. With doubts clogged in my head and fear gripping my heart I got into it. Turned out he was a sweet guy,I don't know may be the fear was so evident on my face that he made sure I was comfortable by talking out random things casually. And that really made me feel at ease. Was the auto anna the problem here for having no clue and becoming the victim of my fear? No. Was I the problem to have doubted him ? Certainly no. What truly is the problem is that how society has taught us certain things the hard way. I did feel sad later recalling how I ended up suspecting an innocent...

Today in our gc class, Prof.Dr.Bins from the department of philosophy asked us a thought provoking question. Are we responsible for the things that we didn't do? My instant reflective answer was 'No'.  But one of our classmates presented an example that changed my perspective. He said ,"if at all an accident occurs in front of us and we don't do anything to help that person then yes, we are responsible for not helping them and hence should be held accountable" . In this case one simply consciously chose not to contribute anything to the person in need.  Doesn't this say a lot about life? How we easily slip from the responsibilities of being a Human to another by simply claiming 'I didn't know' or 'I didn't do anything' but barely realise that when one does nothing to stop an injustice from happening under his/her watch then that's equal to being a part of the injustice itself. Aren't we all sinners then? I feel that we as hu...

Human mind is a fast paced pendulum swinging between "I have it the worst" to "Nobody understands me". Yes nobody gets one like their own self.No matter how hard you try to butter it up this is the bitter truth. On the other hand the "I always have it the worst" thought crumbles when you face even worse situations in your life and realise you were  doing good or it wasn't that worse of a situation in the past.Everyone has it the worst for God doesn't discriminate when it comes to suffering. It can be at different scales in different stages of life but guess what grief isn't that fancy to measure it out. Grief is universal and suffering is survival. One must feel at ease with their own self at first.Be your own safe place that even when the whole world is against you , your heart knows you the best and stays by your side.Because "I understand you" is a very fragile term that can break at any moment and when it does make sure it's y...

Ever since I came to the college I have developed a liking towards the first bench where you sit there with your neck tilted up always looking up towards the Professors.  I would say one among the underrated profession would be being a professor. People often do not tend to realise their worth and value until it's too late. So cherish your Professors for the three or more years that you are going to spend in this college. Notice how tall they stand and appear so great, experience that pleasure by sitting in the very first bench.Your neck may hurt but I promise you would never regret that experience. Hence always choose the first bench to realise how tremendous they sound.Even if you choose the last bench make sure to still look up to their greatness,admire them for they deserve to be treated right. I sincerely hope to stand tall like them one day.

 Why be nonchalant when we are Humans after all? People being nonchalant when joy visits them occassionally and when grief stays forever. Why this recent trend with nonchalant , especially among the youth? We only complain over the fact the they are nonchalant but never try to dig deeper into it. People often try deliberately to hide behind this facade of nonchalance when the words of society gets deafening. But little do they realise society would judge anyway. Like now, how we question about their nonchalance. If you ask me humans always tend to seek any false comforts to hide from grief. A coping mechanism, and nonchalance is one among them. Sometimes pretending not to express something may mean the strong need to express everything.Yet they sometimes fail to understand the aftermath of it. Who are we trying to fool? Is it the society or our own self? Training your mind to be not affected by things that have pierced you deep in the soul?! Let yourself feel things. Be overwhelmed...

 Today during our first hour, Prof. Uday sir presented to us a situation on how one wouldn't notice a diamond amidst the loose sands of the beach when he is enjoying the joys of the waves and breeze. Though he directed it towards another significant aspect ,this situation managed to stir my thoughts enough. Aren't we all just running and rushing towards something that's impermanent and vague.At times even we are not aware about for what all this rush is for.At this marathon in the already chaotic world we fail to realise our true purpose and sometimes lose the diamond. Let us all take a moment,a pause to analyse and look after the diamond that has come across our way. Let us for once stop and remind ourself that's it's not always about surviving but just living or may be existing in the life that we have got.

 Have you ever come across narrow path ways that eventually lead to the same place.The colony I am in has various routes running from all sides of it but no matter which street you take, you will eventually find yourself in the main road. That pretty much sums up what life is.There are these narrow numerous pathways protruding out for you.But what matters is which pathway you choose. Certain routes may take you long enough to reach the main destination while few other paths will make you reach there quickly. Few routes may have rough and curvy roads while the others may have smooth straight roads. Few paths would have traffic that tackles your way while the others will give you a smooth ride. The choices you make matters.And it's you who get to choose your own way. But no matter what you choose you will reach somewhere safely, either with lessons or with experience.The consequences depend on the choices you make but either way remember you would win however. If not for now, sooner!...

 A day where I witnessed so many good souls.To begin with am not a very optimistic person.I often tend to stick with that one belief that people in general are bad and do not truly deserve our trust.But there was this day that broke all of that. It was few weeks back when I went to meet my sister and unfortunately I knew nothing about her place even which bus to board on.So right at the bus stand there was this young girl who helped me figure out which bus was it and helped me board into it.I couldn't even say thanks to her due to all the rush and chaos but was only able to wave her with gratefulness. Clueless me didn't even know when the place where I have to get down would arrive. Seeing my state there was this old lady that was near me who reassured me saying "Dont be scared ma it's the last stop,you can get down when everybody does" and that really helped me relax. Tracing back to the morning of the same day while I was walking to my class, a car quietly slowe...

 Does money truly bring happiness to people? I have often come across people claiming how money can buy anything and everything even happiness but I don't think people really try to understand the depth behind this absurdity.  Let us take a situation for example. Last month it was my sister's birthday and I surprised her by visiting at her hostel with a cake. What truly made her happy was the fact that I took the time and effort to actually travel to her place for the very first time all by myself more than the cake or the gift that I gave her.Honestly I didn't know how to travel in bus to a completely unknown place until for last month and I did it all for her.  What gives one happiness is the feeling or the love that is felt .Money can be a mediator but never the ultimate source of happiness isn't it? Happiness is a feeling and there is no price for it. It is abstract , something that's meant for the soul and it would be a shame to limit it to materialism.Let us n...